Lost In My Mess

We boarded together, am still sailing

You’re not.

This dashboard full of memories, everything still there

You’re not.

Wish I had recorded your voice,

Talking to your hanky, full of embroidery, would have been easier.

Wish I had looked at you longer when you departed,

Drawing you now would have been easier.

Even now I see us singing in my living room,

Just more of solos, duets are few.

It’s cold outside, inside too,

Silly me, like an idiot am still waiting for you.

This guitar, I’m playing,

You always wanted to hear.

Playing your favourite songs now,

But hell you’re not there.

Nothing has changed,

Just the smoke replaced my loneliness.

Even this cigarette has been a bitch, playing hide and seek,

Vindicating the deed of my past, I’m lost in my mess.

Upto something meaningless yet maddening

Moments that melted, yet iced forever,
Few things(that kohl liner) that made memories forever,
Few ways closed, yet opened forever,
Few books i will keep in my library till the time i will grow old,
Few songs that would always be there in my mail,
Few tee-shirts which i wear and go to sleep,
Few pick-up lines which i'll never use again,
Few places i would love to go alone.
Few things i have missed here, few millions maybe....

Saw this little angel in KFC was lucky enough to capture her in my Cam

Ek Sawal

Ek panchi tha, gaata tha wo
Ghar basane ki zid thi usmain, sabko yahi batata tha wo..

Umeddon ka izaafaa hua, li udaan usne
Gira zaameen pe khake chot, kisne maari goli use yea jaana kisne

Hain hum bhi us panchi ki tarah,
Tadptey hain hum bhi.
Ek zid hain hum sabki, batate hain hum bhi,
Chot bhi lagti hai, aur girtey hain us tarah.

Puchun ek sawal yahan,
Dil tute jahan, kya sangeet hain wahan
Hai agar sach yea to har koi sangeetkar yahan,
Kyunki dil lagane ki tarab se tutne ka gum hai jayada wahan..

Hide and Seek

We were together,
walking through the woods, holding hands...
I was thinking we were going on a junket
till the time you left suddenly
while we were playing hide-n-seek,
I still go there through the same road,
to the same place and start the game again, but alone this time
Hoping to find you behind some Tree

हम कहाँ खो गए

एक शाम आइ थी,
लाई गम, खुशियाँ भी,
की गुफ्तगू हमने, पता चला,
थी रुसवा वो भी,
खुशियाँ अब क्या लेते,
थोड़ा गम बाँट लिया.

फ़िर आई रात,
लाई नींद, बेचैनी भी,
की गुफ्तगू हमने, पता चला,
थी बेचैन वो भी,
नींद अब क्या लेते,
थोड़ी बेचैनी बाँट ली.

सुबह आई खिलखिलती,
लाई ताज़गी, नींद भी,
की गुफ्तगू हमने, पता चला,
थी थकावट उसे भी,
ताज़गी अब क्या लेते,
ली नींद और सो गए.

और तुम कहती हो हम खुश नहीं रहते,
जागते हैं रात भर,
दिनभर सोए रहते हैं,
करो गुफ्तगू हमसे कभी,
तुम्हें पता चलेगा,
की हम कहाँ खो गए.

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